Coffee With Kaydee
Man has this week been very up and down. It started off pretty good, usual routine of trying to wake up, reading my Twitter and looking through Instagram, coming downstairs and eating breakfast (though, don't ask me what because I can't remember, I didn't think I should take notes on my breakfast), then showering and doing devotions, reading, going to the gym and finishing school. Eating dinner and finishing projects. Typical week, right? For the most part, yes it was.
On Tuesday I did the usual stuff, and got a package ready to send to my best friend in school! It was pretty fun, I made cookies on the Saturday before and wrote a letter. She doesn't get to come home for Thanksgiving so I thought I'd send her some treats! It was super fun and she called on Friday and told me she cried when she got it and it made me SUPER happy that she liked it & was surprised. My week was pretty uppity, if that's a word (?). I am still sore from gym day on Wednesday, and I vowed to never work out with my brother and his friend again because I just end up not being able to move the next three days, and I like mobility.
I really miss my best friend Shana, because I went to dinner after church with my friend Tah and my brother, and the only thing we talked about was body building. I'm really in want for friends if I'm willing to go to dinner with two guys and listen to gym talk. The whole reason my week got un-uppity is because I don't have any friends. Okay, maybe not literally. I have a lot of friends, but 85% of them live hours away from me or in other countries altogether. This Saturday I got some serious home school fever, you know, when you're at home everyday of the week and when you're not at home you either at work, or out with the family...again. I would have hung out with my friend Haelee, but she already had plans. Then I tried to hang out with another friend but she didn't text me back. I was literally so sick of being at home and with family. I just need a break you know? I haven't had any real fun since the summer, and I'm really suffocating with out my friend here. I shall survive. Maybe.
Not only did I get home school fever, on Thursday a member of the family passed on. I had just gotten out of the shower and I thought I heard my sister crying, but I concluded it was the sniffles. I came out of the bathroom wrapped in a towel with dripping wet hair, to my eleven year old sister in tears. I immediately asked what was wrong and she replied with a sobbing "Tilly died". She had received the green and blue parakeet in January for her birthday, Matilda survived a vicious cat attack, and cause of death is unknown. We had a burial at approximately 12:00 p.m..
Well, that was my week. Super exciting right? Not really, it's not like you care anyway!
Thank Goodness Thanks
Sometimes it's really hard to be thankful for things, especially when you feel so down about everything in your life. Your looks, lack of friends & fun, and everything else. All you want to do is sleep because that is the only time you're not messing up or feeling sad, so you struggle to wake up because you're afraid of the day. You're sacred you'll do something wrong again, or that something else will be added to your already over flowing cup of disappointment. What in the world can you be thankful for? I've really tried to find things to be thankful for more often because it makes life seem less dim. I'll share with you some of the things I'm thankful for this week.
Although I did my share of complaining about my lack of friends earlier, I do have a few that I'm extremely thankful for. The first is my friend Ryan, he's literally always there for me. With his busy life and his own daily struggles and discouragement he never ceases to say the right words to encourage me. He's been there for me in the most difficult times in my life, more so than anyone else. I'm always going to be glad to have him as apart of my life. I'm also thankful for my friends Katelyn & Kaitlynne (no relation). My friend Katelyn, who lives in the same area as me, stood up for me in an amazing way. She didn't let the secrets she found out about my life change the way she treated me. She makes an effort and actually wants to hang out with me. I am never going to be able to convey to her how thankful I am for her. Kaitlynne lives in Florida and she is more of a sister than a friend. Very similar events happened in our lives in about a year apart. When she found out all that happened to me she began to text me and just chit chat about funny stuff, didn't even mention what was going on. I am so so thankful for her and I don't know where I would be without her texting me saying "chiquita banana".
I'm also thankful for little boys with sweet hearts. My sister's friend, Naataah, came to my house on Halloween and gave me a little stuffed doll of a character from The Walking Dead. This little gesture still makes me happy!
Journey to Germany
My God is such an amazing God! He has blessed me with a total of $520 towards my trip to Germany for the month of October. I truly couldn't have gotten this far without His hand it in all. To all who read this and have donated by purchasing scarves, hats, boot cuffs, and ear warmers, thank you so very much! I couldn't have done this without your help and I want you all to know how much you have truly blessed me with your contributions to my trip. I am so extremely excited to get plans set and tickets bought. To be with my German family will be so amazing and to see the work they have there is going to be so good. I also can't wait to travel to different parts of the world. Hopefully I can go to Austria and France, possibly more if it works out!
Time With Christ
This week has been difficult for me spiritually, but God still and always will teach me even when I'm not ready to learn. God has simply reminded be how amazing He is, how powerful and glorious He is. I can't even put in to words how powerful He is! On Wednesday night at church, the lesson was about angels, what they look like and how powerful they are. But in Hebrews it says that God is so much better than the angels. If He's better than the angels, He must be really really good. Isn't it wonderful?!
God has also reminded me of His forgiveness. Man, I sure need to be reminded of this constantly. I have a disposition to forget that when I sin, it's not the end of the world. It's not the end of the world because God is faithful to forgive us. So beautiful, without His faithfulness to forgive I wouldn't be here today.
Quotes From Cody
My brother has a tendency to say some pretty crazy and funny things, so I decided to add a little part to my blog of his crazy sayings from the week. If he actually read my blog he'd be pretty grateful, I think. Let's just keep it between me & you and see if he reads it, alright? Right now I can't recall any from this week but I promise that I'll have one or two next week.
That's all I have from this week. Thank you so much for reading, and remember, owl be hawkward, so should you. ;)
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